when i remember

That boy is gone
Sometimes I miss the way he wept at night
To be still and not run
To be rocked to sleep in Your light
These days there is not much
that will bring tears to my eyes
But when I remember
who I am and who You are
When I remember

A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds

I am walking blind
So distracted that I don’t even feel
when You hold me
When did I grow such thick skin?
You are my sunshine and rain
My joy and sweet pain
I’m a spotless stain
That boy is gone
But nobody moves me like You do
When I remember

A could moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds
I can cry out of sorrow and joy
Every drop of rain turns into
a crystal in the sun
So wash my eyes, my clothes,
my skin, my bones, my soul
My feet, my love
I’m not forgotten
I’m in your thoughts cause
I feel sunshine in the rain

To this day nobody moves
nobody
Nobody moves me like You




one line stuck out to me in this song today
"so distracted that i don't even feel when You hold me"

i don't want to be so distracted with
the little unimportant things in life
that i don't even remember God is always there

this week is stressful. the end of the school year,
lots of projects, exams, papers, etc.

but if i would just remember that i am nothing
and can do nothing on my own
and remember that God is everything
and with Him, everything is possible
maybe i wouldn't be so stressed.

before the throne of God above

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea:
A great High Priest, whose name is Love,
Who ever lives and pleads for me.

My name is graven on his hands,
My name is written on his heart;
I know that while in heaven he stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart
No tongue can bid me thence depart.

When Satan tempts me to despair,
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look, and see him there
Who made an end of all my sin.

Because a sinless Savior died,
My sinful soul is counted free;
For God, the Just, is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Praise the One,
Risen Son of God!

Behold him there, the risen Lamb
My perfect, spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace!

One in himself, I cannot die
My soul is purchased by his blood
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ, my Savior and my God
With Christ, my Savior and my God

i don't know what i want...

ok so obviously i'm not the best at
keeping up with the whole blog thing...lol
anyways, i felt like posting something i guess

it's beautiful outside today.the sun is shining,
kids are running around like maniacs in shorts and t-shirts
you can hear birds singing, you can just smell spring

and it made me happy this morning walking to church

but even in this sudden happiness and readiness for spring,
i am still completely overwhelmed and stressed about life
i shouldn't be. i have nothing to be stressed about.
life is happening just as it's always happened so
what is possibly different in life that is causing this stress?

i have been dwelling on this thought all day...
maybe it's not good to dwell on it, but i can't help it

and i think i have finally come to a conclusion
about what's wrong with me
i don't know what i want...

i'm in my freshman year in college trying to decide what to major in
does it really matter in the long run?? well, kind of...yeah.
depends on how long a run we're talking i guess.
i can't just sit at home on my butt for the rest of my life, right?
so when people ask me what i'm going to do after college,
all i can answer is "i have no idea" and it gets frustrating
but when it goes even further and someone asks
what i'm interested in, the answer is the same "i have no idea."

how can someone have no idea what they're intersted in!!!???

so anyways, i am very overwhelmed by the fact that
i have no idea what it is i want in life...

but as i was contemplating my predicament, i thought
maybe this isn't necessarily a bad thing...
so many people in life know exactly what they want to do
but do they know what God wants them to do?

now, i have no idea what God wants me to do right now
but is it possible that not knowing what i want
could make it easier to know what God wants?
my wants can't get in the way if i don't know what they are, right??

so this is the short version of what i have been
thinking about since 9:30 this morning...
any thoughts to help me out??? lol